Beloved 147-195

Well, this section finally gave us some of the answers we were looking for! So much happened, so let's just start from the beginning. 

First things first, Paul D is left to question his manhood right off the bat. With the memories of school teacher and how he treated him and the recent actions of Beloved, he begins to compare the two relationships. School teacher led him to think, "Was that it? Is that where the manhood lay? In the naming done by a whiteman who was supposed to know? Who gave them the privilege not of working but of deciding how to? No" (Morrison 147). For so long, he had convinced himself that school teacher was wrong, but with the presence of Beloved bringing back these feelings from his past, he begins to question if school teacher was right all along. While discussing what makes him question this, Morrison writes, "It was being moved, placed where she wanted him, and there was nothing he was able to do about it" (148). In order to stop Beloved, Paul D believes that his best option is to tell Sethe. While he isn't able to confess that he is losing his manhood, he is somehow able to just go right on ahead and ask her if she will have another baby! Unsure of what to make of this, the two laugh it off, but this is not the last time Sethe thinks of this conversation. Eventually, she decides that she can't have a baby with Paul D because she was scared of "Needing to be good enough, alert enough, strong enough, that caring - again" (155). Finally, she questions Paul D's intentions, but winds up deciding that this is her way of justifying not wanting to have this baby. 

The next chapter is brief, yet still jampacked. Sethe leaves the room and Beloved manages to pull a tooth out of her mouth in the short time she has been gone, leaving her to believe that "Pieces of her would drop maybe one at a time, maybe all at once" (157). Beloved is not complete without Sethe, and she will simply fall apart without her...interesting. I'm curious what y'all think the significance of this seemingly simple moment is?

Anyways, moving on. In the next chapter, we are taken back to a time where Baby Suggs is hosting a feast. As time passes, those who attended the feast grow mad at Baby Suggs, as they equate the feast with a boastful sense of pride. If I'm being honest, the "dark and coming thing" (163) that Baby Suggs senses confuses me. What is it that y'all think she is sensing? 

This next chapter is where it gets heavy. The imagery is vivid and the scene is laid out in front of us. We see her sons, "[bleeding] in the sawdust" (175) and Sethe holding "a blood-soaked child to her chest with one hand and an infant by the heels in the other" (175). Later in the text, we discover that Sethe felt that she was saving her children from the trauma and horror that she had experienced in her own life. With some time to think, Paul D shows sympathy and understands that "to go to a place where you could love anything you chose - not to need permission for desire - well now, that was freedom" (191). Though the decision seems absolutely absurd to us, this is a situation of which we cannot even imagine. I have trouble even wrapping my mind around how Sethe must have felt and what must have been going through her mind at this moment. 

Morrison essentially leaves us with a quote from Paul D, that came out of nowhere. Just when you think he is sympathizing with her, he says, "You got two feet, Sethe, not four" (194). He is suggesting that Sethe was acting "animal-like" when she killed her children. I applaud Sethe for her composure, yet I wonder what is truly going through her head. Is this just the pure shock factor of the statement talking, or is she truly unaffected by his comment. What do y'all think?

Beloved 101-146

I will not lie. This reading left me quite uncomfortable. Let’s dive in.

After contemplating the disturbing information about Halle and his buttered face, Sethe returns to the Clearing as it is her place of refuge. The Clearing used to be a space where Baby Suggs would encourage the Black community to embrace their flesh and most of all, their hearts. The personification here is really beautiful. The woods almost come to life just like the “laughing children, dancing men, [and] crying women” (Morrison 105). The trees are described as “ringing” and the groundlife as “shuddered.” I love how well the setting captures the tone of this passage. 

Sethe then shares her last memory of Baby Suggs, who on her deathbed said, “There is no bad luck in the world but white folks” (Morrison 105). As Denver, Beloved, and Sethe walk towards the clearing, we are transported to another of Sethe’s flashbacks. This one is a story of how Stamp and Ella helped Sethe and Denver reach 124. When Baby Suggs first catches a glimpse of Sethe’s back, we are captivated by the euphemisms of the description. Sethe’s back is described as “roses of blood blossomed in the blanket” (109). I find it interesting how Morrison chooses to describe something so disturbing with a plant so beautiful.

Ah. I love this next part. We’ve seen this type of syntax before, but it’s back again. When describing Denver as a baby, the sentences start off with a lowercase letter. I have compiled these sentences into the following list for your pleasure: “girl were brought in,” “baby blinked,” and “girl in her arms” (110). This might just be a me thing, but this choice makes this moment feel so tender and precious. After hearing about Sethe’s strenuous journey, we finally find a moment of peace, and here we find proof that the journey was worth it. 

Okay pause. I need to speed this along because I’m only on page 110 right now. I’m going to go ahead and assume y’all don’t need a plot summary because y’all actually read the book, so I am going to skip to the parts of this reading that made me want to squeeze lime juice into my eyeballs. 

Denver accuses Beloved of being the one who choked Sethe. I believe her. This Beloved character is way too impulsive, which leads me to another scene. Beloved, who we think is the “true-to-life presence of the baby [ghost],” (141) tries to seduce the man whom her basically-mother is bedding. She demands, "I want you to touch me on the inside part and call me by my name” (137). Absolutely disgusting. To make matters worse, Paul D. succumbs, not once, but multiple times! 

Personally, I am not a fan of Denver, and here is some proof to support my opinion. Denver cares more about Beloved than her own mother, and regarding the choking scene, “Denver was alarmed by the harm she thought Beloved planned for Sethe, but felt helpless to thwart it, so unrestricted was her need to love another” (123). Denver apparently feels shame for this choice. Well duh, of course, she should.

Let’s also look at this quote about Denver: “The present alone interested Denver,” (141). Good for her for living in the moment, but I feel as if her having no interest in the past, specifically her mother’s past, is the reason for her lack of empathy. Sethe has given so much for Denver, and unlike Paul D, who only shares small amounts of love with the people around him, Sethe gave all her love to Denver. How does Denver pay it back? She picks a reincarnated baby ghost over her own mother and basically becomes a simp (for lack of a better word) for Beloved. However, this is just my opinion. I will never be able to understand how Denver feels, and there is probably a greater meaning behind Denver, Paul D, and Beloved’s poor choices, but this is my blog post, so I have the right to share my opinion.

Toodles,

Lena

Beloved 52-100

 Wow, these fifty pages have a lot to cover. We got further insights into Sethe's past and Denver's birth, more exploration on the relationships developing between the characters living in 124, and, of course, the questionable and mysterious appearance of Beloved. 

After having an argument about Sethe's protectiveness over Denver, Paul D thinks that, "for a used-to-be-slave woman to love anything that much was dangerous, especially if it was her children" (Morrison 54). He believes that you should only love a little bit, so that when the thing you love eventually breaks, you have some love left over for the next person. Paul D's life and trauma has left him with the idea that love isn't regenerative, and that what he loves will eventually leave him. He sees love as being finite. Sethe loves in a different way. This novel is about the love she has for her children, and Sethe puts everything into her love for them. She devotes all of her love to Denver and devoted so much to her baby girl, escaping while pregnant to get milk to her. Through Paul D's eyes, if everyone only has a certain amount of love to give, then Sethe gave too much love to her baby, which is why the baby's death continues to haunt her. He believes that if she's giving all her remaining love to Denver, she doesn't have enough for him and the life they could lead. He wants Sethe to make space for him, as well. However, after this conversation, Sethe believes that she sees a good omen for her new family at the carnival. The shadows of Denver, Sethe, and Paul D are all holding hands, which signifies to Sethe that they can make a life together in 124. 

In the next section, Beloved basically appears out of thin air from the water. The way that she's described in this section was so unsettling to me. She shares many attributes that I think of as belonging to a baby or young child. There are scratches on her skin that look like baby hair, and she has soft hands and feet that look like they're brand new. Her feet are described as "barely capable of their new job", and she walks to the bed like she's a toddler who has just learned to walk. The characters also estimate her to be nineteen or twenty, which was especially creepy to me because I think that's how old Sethe's baby would be if she was still alive. Paul D describing that she acts sick yet could pick up a rocker with one hand only added to how off-setting Beloved's character was to me. It was unclear to me here exactly who Beloved is - a ghost? Oh, and later in this section, Beloved seemingly chokes on bread pudding and thrashes around holding her throat. This originally seemed like a random scene to me, yet took on another meaning when I remembered that Sethe's baby had her throat cut. 

Later, when Beloved helps Sethe make bread, "their two shadows clashed and crossed on the ceiling like black swords" (68). This directly contrasts how Sethe's shadow held hands with Denver's and Paul D's shadows, which made me wonder if Beloved's return could mean the ruin of Sethe's other relationships or create tension in this new family. However, Sethe is able to tell Beloved stories about her past that were still too painful to talk about with Baby Suggs or Paul D. It's unclear why it's easier for Sethe to speak about these events with Beloved, maybe because she sees Beloved as more distant from Sweet Home. Sethe is able to talk about memories that aren't completely full of pain, like when she made her own wedding dress or when Mrs. Garner gives her earrings. However, Sethe only pierced her ears and wore the earrings when she moved to 124. This made me wonder if Sethe wouldn't allow herself to appreciate any beauty when she was living such a painful life at Sweet Home. She wouldn't wear the earrings there and describes her self-made dress as ugly. 

In the next section, Paul D tells Sethe that Halle did see her assault, which broke him. Learning about this horrible story leads Sethe to have an internal monologue about how painful it is that her brain keeps absorbing these horrific stories and images. She thinks, "just once, could it say, No thank you? I just ate and can't hold another bite?" (83). This was another example of how Sethe's past continues to affect her present and future. Sethe's brain is so full of her past that it can't even think about the future, which prevents her from moving on. She doesn't want to keep taking in these painful memories, yet she has no choice. 

Finally, Denver and Beloved talk about where Beloved came from. Beloved tells Denver that she got her name from the dark, which is hot and stuffed with people, some of them dead. In the dark, Beloved is forced to lie curled up. Beloved reveals that she came back to see Sethe's face because Sethe left her behind - possibly in the afterlife? This section of the novel left me with so many questions. How will Beloved's appearance affect the potentially budding familial relationship between Paul D, Sethe, and Denver? Where did Beloved really come from, and who is she? Does her shadow's violence toward Sethe's foreshadow Beloved having bad intentions toward the family?